Delirium not just for christmas it's for life.

Delirium is like all the bad things in your life all rolled into one,

It's like a nightmare you can't wake up from,
It's like your life has become a bad horror film,
People hunting you, experimenting and killing

Reality gone, trying to adapt to what's going on,
Brain trying to make sense of the pain,
Every cut, every conversation that you had,
We are sedated not dead, we hear everything that is said,
Just our brain can't compute enough said?

To us, you are plotting and scheming our demise,
Or maybe even just want to cut out our eyes,
Everything you do will affect us its true,
We're fighting for our lives so give us our due,
What looks like to you to be 'Pleasantly confused'
Is us frightened beyond words I can speak,
Knowing what's happening the term leaves me bemused,
The person is suffering not Pleasantly or truly confused.

Delirium doesn't take away our ability to think,
It takes away reality and leaves us to sink,
To process a world without any cues,
Outside of what we feel and process its true,
The line in my neck inserted though an incision?
To me someone trying to bleed me to death.

Those Art lines used to monitor my blood?
Was someone cutting my wrists and inserting probes to torture,
So remember this as I tell it so clear,
I might be sedated but the pain it is real,
Remember the people whom hold me so dear,
Remember everything you do I can feel.

So in ending, I bring my point to the clear,
Try to whisper because I can hear,
Not just a body or a puzzle to solve,
A person, a Human and someone who's loved,
So it's simple, what you must do,
What would you want done if in that bed it was YOU

Foot steps: The Journey

We never look at how far we've come,

We just look at how long we have left,

My journey is far from done,

Had to lift friends when they can't get up,

Been held up on my dark days.

Started my recovery journey by my self,

Now I have lots of help,

A whole team of people supporting me,

I survived by my strength of will,

It was no sort of skill,

The Sepsis wouldn't let me be,

ARDS tried to be the end of me.

But now I look beside me,

What do I see?

Friends and Family,

All who have, love for me!

My heart is full,

With all the love I am shown,

Friendships have grown,

We're all fighting for a cause,

To make ICU life and survivorship better.

Recovery isn't easy but it starts with a single step,

Sometimes it is easy, 

Sometimes it takes everything you've got,

But with the RehabLegend family behind you, it's no stress,

We are here to help you be your best,

But remember no matter how hard it gets,

We are all here for you,

To help support in this test,

We have walked this path and survived,

So can you, we will gladly help you if you need us too.

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I have had a lot of bumps in my path through life but I am still standing (for 2 minutes at a time mind you) still smiling (unless I cracked a tooth) and trying to live my life as fully as I can. There are lots of inspirational people in this world and lots of people who want to help people. I have met tonnes of them, the greatness and kindness of people are immense. To the 500 plus people who follow me on twitter (I have no idea why you do) but you all mean a lot to me. To my friends whom I seem to have more than I could ever imagine having before as the guy who was sick a lot and in the ital more than the average person.

Thank you all for being my friend and listening to me when I have been struggling with life, anxiety, my health in general and a whole host of other things.

But most of all Thank you, everyone, that reads this it means the world to me and I hope that it makes you smile or feel inspired or anything else really. Thank you, you mean the world to me.