Podcast Gif

Hi so I was trying to make a gif for my podcast ICU Life and Recovery and it turns out it's pretty hard to make it to GIPHY or twitters standards as the file size limit is so low so I wanted to put it here with the original video format just to show what I am trying to do:

via GIPHY

Sorry for the low res It is better on Giphy if you click on it but it's just the same as the video 

Hope you like them if anyone has any advice or tips please comment and let me know.

So I have been writing pocket poems that I have mostly been putting up on Twitter, but I thought I might put one here too:

I've spent my  life being told what I wouldn't achieve,

Never get a degree, Never be a writer or public speaker,

Not that bright barely read and write,

So I knuckled down for the fight,

No support from the schools I was given,

My own path to success I have written.

I'm never going to be a 'great',

I know that's not my fate,

I'm here to help others achieve,

To elevate and support.

I'm a team player, no hater,

Seeing my friends achieve greatness,

It's not time wasted,

To see them achieve greatness.

Creativity: Internal Debate

 From the left entering the stage, Mr Poetry in a tee shirt and tracksuit bottoms walks to stage centre:

When times get thought I'm who he turned to,

When emotion run high I'm what he uses,

The words he doesn't want to forget,

I write them down so he can reflect,

I'm the dam reason he gets any respect.

From off stage right, a voice can be heard  "Woah, Woah, Woah." Then entering from stage right in a three-piece suit Mr Speaker who strides to centre stage putting his hand on Mr Poetry's shoulder and ushering him slightly to the left.

I mean no disrespect but it was me that brought relevance,

To the words, you wrote however relevant,

 Standing and telling his sad tale made us prevalent,

Sure your words are important but it's my voice that emotes them,

It is me who crafts the words that people have heard,

I'm the force behind where we are going.

Dropping down from the rafters, an older man lands between the two men and places his hands on their shoulders guiding them to be just a half step behind him.

It's kind of funny to see you boys argue,

Here are some fact for both of you,

When it comes to creativity I am the boss, not you two,

When people think of him they think of what I do,

His friends come to me not the pair of you dudes.

Numbers

Numbers are my life,

They dominate every aspect of my life,

If I can go outside comes down to The roll of a dice,

This is my life, this is my strife.

I used to smile more than I do,

I used to be happy, ignorance is bliss,

These are not the days that I miss,

I miss those days taken from me,

Missing my brother’s wedding cut me deep in my soul.

Numbers are everywhere especially these days,

We hear about all the numbers everyday,

These numbers are overwhelming,

Numbers that represent lives effected,

They are thrown about just matter of fact.

My number of friends has expanded,

As my heart swells, with affection I’m shown,

People who want to join me in this fight,

Those who want to be part of my life.

Thank you to everyone,

You mean so very much to me,

I hope I don’t disappoint, as I try my best.

Protect the Protectors

We must protect those who look after us,

I watch from the sidelines as they are breaking,

I watch as my friends wills are taken,

I watch at my heroes dangerous undertaking,

I see ICU bursting at the seams.

Our guardians of our bodies while in a coma we ‘sleep’,

The stresses and strain on their shoulders we heap,

But our burdens and secrets we ask them to keep,

All of the noise wearing them down with ever machine beep,

Look at them as individuals, not mindless sheep.

These are my family these are my people,

Those who administer my metaphorical sleep pill,

Who stood with me through every valley and hill,

Those who where there for me when I was ran through the mill,

People whom I have so much respect for still.

Our protectors, problem solvers and healers,

Stripping back our issues the ultimate revealers,

Not from the potter verse but alas death dealers,

A burden they wear under layers of concealer.

These are my people, my friends, my family,

Their struggle is mine implicitly,

I will carry their burden if asked of me,

Like Lydia I will do it willingly.

But here is the thing I want you to know,

You are not alone, their are people you can phone,

You can send me a tweet or even a Dm,

If you are struggling or needing a friend,

I’m a survivor but so are you,

If you need a hand I will help you to.

Take my hand like you would take from a brother,

Embrace me fully because I love ya,

You are important to more than just me,

You are a hero in case you can’t see,

You battle with death every single day,

Doing the impossible is all I can say.

I know times are hard, I know you are in a lot of ways under appreciated. You are being over worked and asked to do more than you where already doing. It is not unnoticed I see the hard work and monumental effort you are putting in to keep people like me safe and help those sick to get through this. Thank you I see you and so do so many people. Thank you for your hard work.

Scots Life

It's a sair fecht, everyday a fight,

Ever neuk crannie I look hardship I find,

My body trying to take my life, roch,

Fae here back to ICU I thocht.

   Isnae fair folk see I reply,

I am too stubborn to lay doon and dee,

It'll take mair than a virus tae see me aff,

I'm Fou a worry some times actin daft.

Noo in my heid my thoughts are flitting,

The sides A my brain they be skelpin,

They got me up to high doh,  

Maist aye the time am a' richt,

'cept when am alane in the middle a the nicht.

Now its time to change the vernacular,

Use the Queen's English to get back on track at ya,

Thousands of Idea bouncing inside my head,

But my heart breaks when I try one and fail,

Its why I restrained myself,

Clipped my wings so I couldn't soar,

Because, a fall from on high hurts.

But the ICU hit, life on pause,

First you must win the fight,

Plan the battle hold the ground give no quarter,

It's a pitched battle, support from outside,

A team of expert specialists, launching assaults,

Suppling the front lines with fluids and antibiotics,

Helping the general to win the fight. 

I can’t breathe

Today I woke up, it’s hard to breathe,

Humidity rising, mucus forming,

Energy sapping, tasks impossible,

Walking up the stairs constant duress.

The heat rising my thoughts effected,

The heat rising my mood effected,

The heat rising my sleep effected,

The heat rising my will effected.

The climate of the world is changing,

Not just the weather that is changing

Shade of your skin should have no bearing,

In a new world built on caring.

The melanin in your skin doesn’t define your skill,

It doesn’t define the person within,

It doesn’t show the hard work you put in,

It’s not a factor in your intelligence.

I can’t breathe I am suffering,

I can breathe can you help me,

I can’t breathe I am suffering,

Sound familiar these words do?

We’re all equal that’s what we need.

Do you have the skills?

Do have the experience?

Do you have something else to bring?

These are the questions that matter.

We are humans,

We are one,

We all live under the sun,

We all love to laugh and have fun,

We’re United we are one.

Black Lives Matter.

ICU Life and Recovery Podcast

So this is a blog post, I know what am I doing, I am insane. But I just wanted to tell people who read my blog but maybe don't follow my tweets that closely. I started what I am hoping to be a monthly podcast called ICU Life and Recovery Podcast and set up a twitter account for it Twitter account. 

This is the most excited I have been for a project ever in my life, it is a concept I created, an ex-patient and patient advocate talking with experts about a topic they are passionate about in ICU. I feel patient insight is often overlooked or not used enough so I thought I have enough friends in the ICU field maybe I could get some of them to have a chat with me and record it and see how it turned out. So I set out to plan out a concept writing up a concept document and planning out an order for the podcast.

I then spoke to my friends and a lot more than I expected agreed to be on it, enough that I started to feel a lot of pressure, I also was involved in an Intensive Care Society    webinar and then when I announced my podcast they were interested in helping support me and the pressure started to increase. Now I am partially to blame for this in that I created the twitter account and announce I was planning it before I had even recorded my intro. So a lot of people followed the account and it added stress to me that maybe wasn't great for me. 

But I now felt if I didn't make this happen I was going to let down my friends and that it's tough on me. So I recorded the introduction episode and had my good friend Heidi listen to it and tell me what she thought. I have done a lot of work with Heidi and we where at the EDA conference you can read about in previous blog posts. I did a little rearranging and fired it up through Anchor podcast distribution platform, it's easy and straight forward so I love it. It was well received and interest seemed to increase. So I had to decide who would be my first guest and I guess to a lot of people it would have been a hard one but to me, it was one person Kate Tantam. A loyal and supportive friend, I knew a few things, one that we wouldn't have dead air because she can talk about our topic of discussion till the day was done, this took the stress off the anti-social person that is me to carry the discussion. We have chatted a lot on the phone online etc so I know we can have discussions without stepping on each other and most importantly as a good friend I knew she would help make it great.

And it turned out great, it required more editing than I had expected mostly because I stutter and um when I am replying because I need to give my brain time to catch up even more so now post ICU. I do things to allow my slower brain to go through the processes and analyse the information. But finally after a lot of hard work I have an end product that I am extremely proud of.

So going forward I am probably going to blog a big about every new episode because I think it might be interesting and its really important to me so I thought you might like to hear about it.